For Now, Lord

For Now, Lord

It’s been long enough, Lord!

I’ve had enough.

Enough of this burden of sin, already.

It has weighed me down beyond my alotted three-score and ten years.

Since I was a youth You have pricked my conscience and given me the desire to keep my eyes fixed on the back of your head as you lead me in the paths of righteousness.

Too soon I grow weary.

I’ve longed to see your face.

But that longing too soon fades.

I am left only with weariness.

Long enough our Enemy has looked down his nose at me with disdain.

He taunts me with my failure to keep my eyes on your back, as you lead, Lord.

He faces me, Lord, with dazzling, but empty promises.

Places within me desires that are not yours.

He scoffs when I stumble from the load of meaningless rules that he concocts from Your Word.

Soon enough I will feel your embrace.

Soon enough I will know your smile.

Soon enough I will know your plan for my life.

Soon enough I will see the burden that has been lifted from my shoulders.

Soon enough I will join with countless others who will praise your forgiving love forever.

For now I will trust your plans.

For now I will choose to follow.

For now I will trust without seeing.

For now I will praise what I cannot see.

For now I will believe what I cannot understand.

In the waiting time give me strength,

Endurance,

Wisdom,

Faith,

and Love.

Psalm 2015: 1113